Oct 19, 2018

Addison over the Years // Happy Friday

I still have a hard time believing that Addison is really 6 but here we are. It seems like a lifetime ago that this little girl came into our lives and made me a mom. I remember feeling so clueless - still do sometimes actually.

She has been through so much in her 6 years and she is such a strong fighter. There was nothing more terrifying than watching her regress then worry about what could be happening. There were so many things that ran through my mind when it all started of things that could be happening to my little girl. But we got lucky and like I said she's a fighter. To look at her now and where she is you would never know that she was so delayed and struggled for so long.

I won't say that every day of her 6 years has been all rainbows and sunshine. We didn't have the terrible twos but threes were definitely challenging. Truthfully fives were a little rough too. But I wouldn't change a moment. She is such an amazing girl. She's so smart and so sharp. She's so much like her dad and her minds moves about a mile a minute.

She has changed so much over the last six years and has come so far, but that smile still gets me even on those less than ideal days. From my tiny little baby who wore newborn clothes for three months to the bald one year to the fighter that she became and the brilliant six year she is now, I can't imagine our lives without her.

Have a great weekend!
Happy Friday!

Oct 16, 2018

Bump to Baby: 29 Weeks

You are about 15.2 inches long and about 2.5 pounds now. Of course I have no doubt that you are a little heavier and longer than that but it does put you at about the size of a large butternut squash now. You are definitely getting more cramped in there but that doesn't mean your kicks and punches are pretty powerful. You are also doing a lot of hiccuping. As far as development, it's basically all about your lungs. You are just growing away and your lungs are developing and getting ready for your time outside the womb.

This week as been much like the last. A lot of tired. A lot of achy. A lot of just trying to figure out what I can eat and what makes me feel crummy. Meal planning is a pretty impossible task at this point because I just don't know what to eat. I have a lot more things that are aversions to me than things I
crave. I'm definitely not interested in ground beef or chicken breasts which is usually a staple in our house but not these days and it's been pretty hard trying to figure out what we should eat every day. Truthfully lately I have been really sore. My body just aches. I guess that's part of being pregnant and in my 30s. But I'm making it and I do the best I can. My skeletal issues are definitely getting worst in regards to the pain in my shoulder blade and my rib cage. Those are definitely better than I'm reclined back or standing, however standing isn't always great because I have some varicose veins which start to really ache when I'm on my feet too long. This is the first pregnancy with varicose veins and my doctor told me they would go away after you are born but for now they are pretty uncomfortable.

How far along: 29 weeks

How big is baby: A large butternut squash, although girly girl is measuring about a week ahead at my last ultrasound so probably bigger than that.

Total weight gain: About 8 pounds total. I gain weight all in just my tummy with every pregnancy so it's all baby.

Clothes: I'm wearing pretty much all maternity clothes unless I'm wearing sweatpants. There are some t-shirts that fit but most are too short.

Purchases: I have gotten an outfit for her, but mostly it's just stuff for her room. I have also gotten a coming-home outfit which I have always bought for each kid that only that kid wears and I found hers. I'm pretty excited about it and how adorable it is. And truthfully I love how her room has come together.

Movement: All you do is move around. You are a powerful and strong little girl. You definitely have the kicks and jabs down, almost to the point that it's painful. You are definitely an active little girl.

Sleep: I definitely haven't been sleeping so great these days. I'm usually getting up about twice a night but mostly it's just because I can't get comfortable.

Food cravings/aversions: I pretty much feel like I can't find anything to eat. I want things like all meats pizza but I don't want ground beef or chicken breast at all. It's a weird mix. Mostly it's all about finding foods that don't make me queasy which I don't usually know make me queasy until after I've already started eating.

What I miss: Being comfortable. I'm tired of all the aches and pains. I also miss not having to think so hard about what I'm eating. I really want a hoagie sandwich too.

What I'm looking forward to: Eating a hoagie sandwich. But seriously I'm really looking forward to meeting Emma. I just can't wait to finally see her, although I would prefer she waits a few more weeks before that happens.

Husband update: "I'm still your husband" was his response when I asked him for a husband update. (Perhaps I should have asked for something more specific.) He's good. I think he's at the point where he's tired of all the pillows that I constantly have surrounding me. But he's patient and awesome. He's a trooper but I think he enjoys my pregnancy insanity. And of course he's excited about Emma, although sometimes his eyes bug out slightly when I mention how close we actually are to my due date.

(Sunday, October 7 - Saturday, October 13)

Oct 15, 2018

Addison Sophia: 6 Years

Dear Addison:

I can't believe I just wrote 6 years. There is no way that you are actually six years old already. You are still my little girl. But now you are six, a big sister, a kindergartner. Whether you are my little baby or this six year old you now, you were, are, and have always been amazing.

This has been a busy year for you. You went from being in pre-k to kindergarten. You moved into an even bigger room in our house. You tried dance class. You found out you were becoming a big sister twice over. You lost several teeth. And quiet frankly you are just growing up to be such an awesome little girl.

The year definitely didn't start out so great since you had to get your kindergarten shots right after your birthday even though you weren't starting kindergarten yet. Those definitely weren't fun but you were tough and you got through it like a champ. I'm always so proud of how well you will do in moments like that. But you are a tough kid.

Definitely more exciting was losing your first tooth. We had gone to the dentist and they told me you had some loose teeth but it wasn't until months later that while we were making dinner one night, your tooth came out. So you got your first visit to the tooth fairy and that was definitely exciting. Since then of course you have been visited by the tooth fairy three more times having loss your second front bottom tooth and your two top front teeth. You definitely took the cake with cute in your school picture with two missing front teeth. They are already growing so fast and you are already ready to lose more teeth. You like to tell your brother that he isn't old enough but you are and that's why you are losing your teeth.

Your preschool graduation was emotional but also very exciting. It was hard to believe that you were already done with two years of preschool and ready to move on to kindergarten. But you were also so ready. You wanted to start kindergarten right away even though you weren't sure about the fact that you had to start at a whole new school. I worried about you and how you would do away from the school you had grown used to and the friends you had developed. But of course I didn't need to. By the time you left preschool you were completely off your IEP, you were reading and writing and doing basic math. You were definitely more than ready for the challenge of kindergarten and not ready for the boredom of summer, although you did grow to love sleeping each morning.

I was definitely more emotional about you starting kindergarten than you were. You were just ready by the time the school year started. You told me that you were ready to make new friends and were excited to start especially since we could see the school and I spent so much time talking to you about how awesome school was going to be. I think you were definitely nervous starting school but you have adapted quickly, made lots of friends and are loving school.

We went to the beach again this year and you have come so far in your fear of the water. You were all about playing in the ocean and jumping in the waves. You floated in an inner tube and had a great time. I was really proud of you and all your water play time. You even did quite a bit of playing in the pool and over the course of the summer you started learning to trust a lifejacket while in a pool. You aren't swimming on your own yet but you will be there in no time with a few swimming lessons.

In the last few months you have taken on more responsibility around the house in the form of chores. You have been wanting to help more and we have talked more about chores you can do and the benefits of working for your money. You have definitely enjoyed getting an allowance and have been saving your money for a toy. You have really done a great job helping out around the house and taking on a little more responsibility.

We are really proud of you. You are an amazing little girl and have come so far in such a short amount of time. You are beautiful and energetic. You are funny and bring so much to this world. You are the one who made me a mom and I can't imagine the world without you in it. Always remember how beautiful and smart and amazing you are. I love you so much.

Love, Mama

Oct 12, 2018

Dinosaurs // Happy Friday

Two weekends ago now, we went to Union Station to see the Dinosaurs Revealed. We went on a terrible weekend however because it was Fashion Week at Union Station and had to pay a dumb amount of money, but the kids had a good time seeing the dinosaurs and we had to promise we would return again to do Science City. 

The second picture is probably one of my favorites because it's totally the two of them. Connor being a dinosaur in all his chaos and Addie with her innocent smile. But it's hard to resist either one of them.

Have a great weekend!
Happy Friday!

Oct 10, 2018

This Time Last Year...

2010: "Autumn. The Year's Last Loveliest Smile." William Cullen Byrant

This is one of my first blog posts where I made a list of things to do now that it as fall. Of course I didn't actually do very much of it because time got away from us with planning a wedding and I was still working at the time. We did a few things but not too many things.

2011: The One with the Honeymoon House Tour

In this post I shared about our videos of honeymoon house. We loved where we went (and look forward to going back someday). In this post though I shared the video I took and the video that Rob took while following me around which turned out to be quite the gem.

2012: That Very Witch - Black Cat - Boo - Batty Kind of Halloween

I shared about some Halloween decorations that I had made and were putting up around the house. I'm definitely not a professional when it comes to design and all the decorations were homemade. But I was proud of it so that's what mattered. And actually even now those decorations still go up around Halloween every year.

2013: All About Pink Again + I'm a Dork // Happy Friday

Throughout the month of October in 2013, we were wearing pink on Fridays in honor of breast cancer awareness month. But this Friday I shared a story about a book I was reading and two different book marks in that book and how I confused myself reading that book.

2014: Stella Lately // Happy Friday

This post was all about Stella cat. She had been a bit neglected on the blog since we had Addison so I decided to share all about what Stella was up to and a handful of pictures all about her weirdness.

2015: Side by Side // Happy Friday

I was 18 weeks pregnant with Connor and I shared what I looked like when I pregnant with Addison. That seems like forever again.

2016: Our Weekend in Photographs

We went to the pumpkin patch and the kids had a good time. Or at least Addison did. Connor wasn't quite a year old. It was really muddy though and we only ended up getting two pumpkins for the kids. It was crowded and that made it less than fun but we had a good time.

2017: Wreck this Journal: Episode 1

I had had every intention of making this a series on the blog but I didn't end up doing too many more pages. Life got away from me and I was just busy. Maybe one day I'll get back to it and give it another go.

Oct 8, 2018

Bump to Baby: 28 Weeks

You weigh about two and a quarter pounds and are almost 15 inches long from head to toe. You are currently settling into your proper birth position with your head facing downward. I don't know if that's the case but you sure are shifting a lot and it's been a little painful lately. You have been working on blinking these days, which is just another skill to add into your many tricks like coughing, sucking, hiccupping and breathing. You have your own sleep cycles - they don't always line up with mine however - and now included is the rapid eye movement phase which means you are probably even dreaming.

This has been the week of aches and pains. I may not be very big but I am definitely feeling 7 months pregnant. I'm also pretty tired. Most days I just want to lay on the
couch and not move, but your siblings don't always agree with that idea so much. My back has been pretty achy and it's not just the skeletal spot but the whole thing. Bending is just pain uncomfortable. Your movements are sometimes pretty painful too. You definitely have a kick on you. I just feel achy from my head to my toes these days and trying to find a comfortable position is hard. Sometimes I have to have your dad remind me that I don't always feel like this and I feel better when I'm not pregnant. But it's all worth it in the end, it just makes for a long nine months. I am still somehow struggling with food. I haven't thrown up in a couple weeks now but that doesn't mean I don't get queasy at almost every meal. It takes me forever to get through a meal because I have to eat so slowly and take really small bites. But I am definitely hungry a lot, so I feel like I'm constantly eating. I also feel like I'm constantly running off to the bathroom. It doesn't take much - walking, coughing, sneezing. I am getting tired of the constant trips to the bathroom especially in the middle of the night.

It really does seem crazy to me that I am now in my third trimester and my seventh month. Truthfully I never imagined I would actually get to this point because I never expected to actually get pregnant again. I had hoped it would happen but after all we went through to get Connor I never imagined we would be able to get pregnant again then after my fourth miscarriage right before this pregnancy, I was sure my pregnancy days were behind me. But we were able to get pregnant again and now I'm into my last trimester. This pregnancy hasn't exactly been a cake walk for me in so many ways. It's been challenging and I just haven't felt good at all. I did finally stop throwing up halfway through my second trimester but I never did get a burst of energy in my second trimester. I have struggled with food throughout this entire pregnancy which has definitely been frustrating, and even now I often feel queasy when I eat but I definitely feel queasy when I get too hungry. I have also struggle with discomfort pretty early on. The heat of the summer never helped, but my body just ached. I never really put on a lot of weight during my pregnancies but that doesn't mean I don't feel uncomfortable. I get a lot of pain my shoulder and my rib cage which my doctor told me a couple pregnancies ago that it was just a skeletal issue I have. That pain started even earlier than it has the last two pregnancies which makes it frustrating when I'm trying to find a comfortable way to sit. But I will take every moment of discomfort because that means I am carrying this baby girl. I still have a hard time believing I am actually pregnant and we will be meeting this girl in just a few short months. And I am so ready. I can't wait to see who she is and will become. I can't wait to see who she looks like. Will she be another lefty? Will she be fearless like Connor or cautious like Addison? I am can't wait to have her here and to finally meet the girl who's been punching me in the ribs for months now.

(Sunday, September 30 - Saturday, October 6)


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