Nov 16, 2018

Three Ladies & Their Gents: Fall 2018 Edition // Happy Friday


This fella has been busy lately. Not only is he busy at working but he's been picking up the slack around the house for me. The dishes aren't exactly always done and the floors aren't getting vacuum weekly but he deals with the kids which is way bigger than any dishes or vacuuming. I don't know what I would do without him. On top of all that he has been working on a meal planning/recipe app for my computer for me in the evenings to make it easier for me to deal with meal planning. He's busy but he's doing good.


Still pregnant so pretty much just trying to survive. If you have been following my weekly pregnancy posts than you know that I have been struggling with back and rib pain - a skeletal issue I have. Also I just shared that I have again have gestational diabetes so that's definitely been a struggle. I am very much looking forward to being done with this pregnancy and getting to meet Emma. But other than pregnancy I have been busy trying to get things ready before Emma. I have been busy with the shop trying to get all my new releases done for the shop for December so I don't have any work to do in December. Just trying to get ahead. I've been busy Christmas shopping as well as just basic house stuff. Although I haven't exactly been doing a ton of housework lately since I have been pretty uncomfortable with this pregnancy but I'm doing the best I can.


This kid is loving school. And loving reading even more. She is reading quite a bit above kindergarten and her teachers are doing their best to make sure she's not bored and being challenged. She is really doing well at school and a bundle of energy. I could do without the bad dreams she has been having which means that she wakes us up in the night (I don't need any help getting up at night). But otherwise she is smart as a whip and completely wears me out. She has so much energy and her mind moves a mile a minute so sometimes it's a struggle to slow her down.


His boy is exhausting and frustrating and very two. But he is also amazing and smart and funny. Like I said he is very very two. He has moments when he is the most adorable and sweetest kid in the world and he has others that you just want to strangle him. He's definitely got a strong personality so you have to give him that. He's lately been wanting to learn the alphabet. He'll tell me that he wants to read to me. He goes off what he remembers and the pictures but it's pretty adorable. He's going to be another reader I guess. Another interesting fact about Connor is that he hates to have his coat zipped. It could seriously be in the negatives and I have to fight to get him to zip his coat. He tells me it's too tight. He doesn't like to be trapped. But we are managing so far with this cold weather.


This is the first addition of Emma! I know she's not born yet and I do weekly updates on her but she's part of this family so I'm adding her. She's just growing away. She's definitely an active one and she gets the hiccups a lot. We are definitely ready to meet her.


Stella is doing better now into our second straight month of the calming collar. This is our third go with it but we took a break before the first and second and we noticed she seemed on edge again. It seems to be helping now that we are into our third month although it's hard to tell because she is a cat and they don't talk. But otherwise she is weird and sleeps on me at night. So she's normal.

Nov 15, 2018

Bump to Baby: A Case of that Nasty Drink

With my pregnancy with Addison I was given quite the shock when I learned that I had gestational diabetes. At the time I had no idea what that was. I had never heard of it. I knew nothing about it. It was all a complete shock. That pregnancy was tough in so many ways and by the time I hit the third trimester I had finally stopped throwing up but suddenly everything had to change because I had GD. I had to find a way to stay active. I had to completely overhaul my diet. I had to take my blood four times a day. It was hard and it sucked.

So when I got pregnant with Connor, even though we used a fertility clinic which included a diabetes drug to help us get pregnant, I fully expected to have GD again. I had learned a lot about it during that time I did have it with Addison, like I only had a 10% chance of having it in the first place and any other pregnancies I had had a 90% of having it again. So when it came time to do my glucose tests which I dreaded doing I figured it was in my future. I ended up failing my 1 hour by a lot and moved on to my 3 hour. At least this time I didn't have to retake the 3 hour because I got sick less than a hour in like with Addison. But as it turned out things were good. My numbers weren't even borderline. They were right in the middle of where they were supposed to be which meant somehow in my second [full term] pregnancy I had escaped without gestational diabetes.

But after we got pregnant this time I had wondered about my odds. With Addison we had gotten pregnant naturally and I had struggled with food my entire pregnancy. With Connor we had help and things weren't as hard. This time we were somehow able to get pregnant naturally again (in your face fertility clinic that told me Addison was a fluke and I couldn't get pregnant naturally!) and I was back to the food struggle. Throughout the entire pregnancy I have struggled with trying to figure out what to eat then after I would finally eat something more often than not I felt awful. I just couldn't find a balance and I was starting to wonder about my odds of having gestational diabetes again.

I dreaded when the time actually came to take the test. There is just nothing good about those glucose drinks. You pretty much just had to grin and bear it. Small sips. Drink water along the way. And hope for the best if you have a weak stomach. That appointment I actually didn't end up having to take any kids with me which I was thankful for. They would have done fine but it was nice to not have to worry about them during my 1 hour. Plus I was nervous if I would even be able to keep the drink down since high sugar anything wasn't sitting real well with me as of late.

Since I had an OB appointment as well as my 1 hour I went to take my drink first before my actual appointment which helped kill some time and I wasn't just sitting the entire time. I headed back to the lab, left my urine sample (actually one of my least favorite parts of pregnancy is those urine samples you leave every appointment because as you get bigger, it just gets harder!), then it was on to my drink. I ended up with orange this time and told I had five minutes to get it down. So I started drinking. The lab techs talked to me while I drank which actually helped distract me from what I was doing and I able to get it down in three minutes then go about my appointment.

I was told that I would see my results in patient portal if everything was normal but would get a call otherwise on Monday (my test was Friday) and I left fully expecting a Monday phone call. Monday rolls around and sure enough no notifications in my patient portal and that afternoon I got a call.

But it didn't quite go as I expected. The nurse explains to me that there is some debate about the top number, if it should be 130 or 140. Turns out my number was 139. So instead of making me do the 3 hour with my number right in that borderline range I would do the 1 hour again in four weeks then we would go from there. I was surprised by the whole conversation and pleased that for the first time I didn't fail my 1 hour. It wasn't a complete pass but it wasn't a fail either. I would take it.

So I wait out my four weeks and back for another OB appointment and back for another 1 hour drink. But this time I actually had both kids due to Addison having a doctor's appointment as well as a flu shot for Connor and of course my OB. But when I get there the computers are down. The anticipation that had been building about retaking this test would just continue to build because I wouldn't be doing it that day.

So I got a call a day later to schedule my appointment and once again we would try again. Rob agreed to take the little guy (Addie was in school) since I was just sitting for an hour. I was a ball of nerves the day of though - I really hate that drink. I dropped Connor off at Garmin to spend an hour with daddy which included a picnic for them. And i went over to the doctor.

I chose the orange drink and was told that I had five minutes to drink it and I needed to let them know when I finished so they could start the timer. I got the drink down, let them know and hoped my stomach would keep it down. I hadn't exactly been feeling great that morning so I was a little worried. I sipped water and started reading to distract myself. As long as I kept my mind busy I was good.

Then about 30 minutes in I started to feel pretty awful. My stomach took a turn and I got really sleepy. And actually I always get super sleepy after doing the glucose test so it wasn't a major shock that I got as tired as I did. I got a cute text from Rob of him and Connor and some encouragement and knew I only had 30 minutes to go. Mind over matter and my last 30 minutes was up. I got my blood draw and pretty much crashed the rest of the day. I just didn't have anything left with the sugar crash I was experiencing.

And now it was back to waiting for either an email notification or the phone call to tell me that I would have to do the 3 hour. And then the phone call came. Sure enough I was borderline again and with my past it was better to take the 3 hour so I got it scheduled and we would go from there. But also at least I knew that this was by the last time I would be doing this - I guess that's the advantage of knowing this is our last baby and I wouldn't be doing this again.

So again I went in for the 3 hour fasting glucose lab. I got my first [fasting] blood draw then started drinking. It didn't go well. I struggled getting through the drink. About halfway through my stomach started turning and I was sure it wasn't going to stay down. I really and truly thought I was going to throw up while I was drinking it and just knew that this wasn't a great start. But I sipped some water and kept telling myself mind over matter and got it down. And now all I could do was wait.

I did my best to keep myself busy because as long as I'm not thinking about it I was golden. And I got through my last three blood draws without issues. I was definitely tired and run down. I wasn't feeling awesome but I also didn't feel like I was going to be sick either. So basically I survived. I made it through my four blood draws and wanted nothing more than to go home and take a nap. And then it was time to just wait. The first thing I told Rob was that I didn't care what the results where - I could have gestational diabetes or not, it didn't matter - all I cared about was that I didn't ever have to do that glucose test again.

A couple days later I went in for my regular OB appointment and she went to look to see if my results were back yet. She gave back with a look on her face that told me everything. I was being diagnosed with gestational diabetes again. She said a middle number was really high (it was almost exactly like it was with Addison). So she ran through everything really quickly and I was back to testing my blood sugars and being very mindful of what I can eat. Also that meant weekly ultrasounds to check on Emma, plus a delivery by 39 weeks. After having an easy non-GD pregnancy, this pregnancy just keeps it coming with yet another hit. I have gestational diabetes again.

Nov 14, 2018

Currently: Fall 2018 Edition

Currently Working On // A lot of stuff for Beautiful Mess Plans Co. I'm trying to make sure I have everything ready for when Emma comes. I have some new releases planned for December and I want to have all those designed and ready so I don't have to do anything once I hit full term. Just trying to get ahead! (This is a sneak peek at the New Years Eve kit I'm putting together for Black Friday!)

Currently Anticipating // Is there anything else that I could be anticipating except for the arrival of Emma. I am so ready for her to come and we are definitely in our final countdown. If she comes when Addison did then we are down to 2 1/2 weeks. If she comes with Connor did then we have 4 1/2 weeks. Either way it's soon!

Currently Annoyed By // Food. Food is annoying. (Come back tomorrow to find out why I find food so annoying.)

Currently Grateful For // The hubs. That man is a saint. This pregnancy has seriously been kicking my butt and he's an amazing man who has been picking up a lot of my slack. I honestly don't know what I would do without him. He's one of a kind and just plain amazing.

Currently Reading // The Heir by Kiera Cass - this is the fourth book in The Selection series and I have enjoyed the first three quite a bit. (Also with the book I just finished I have officially achieved my reading goal of 30 books for the year!)

Currently Staying Active // Truthfully I haven't been doing much of anything other than walking to school. I feel like I definitely do a lot of walking although it's not so fast with Connor but it's still walking. It's better than nothing. I haven't been doing anything else because I have been so uncomfortable from my rib to my varicose veins. But like I said walking is at least something. (I am so looking forward to eventually getting back to working out again after Emma comes like you wouldn't believe!)

Currently Craving // Hoagie sandwiches. I can't even tell you how badly I want one of those. Rob promised me that after Emma comes he will go and get me all the deli meats and hoagie bread so I can make myself as many hoagie sandwiches as I want.

Currently Loving // Our gas fireplace. It has gotten cold around here and it's been really nice to just flip a switch and take the chill out of the air and off us when we get back from walking Addison to school. It's definitely been nice because I hate being cold.

Currently Would Like to Travel To // DisneyWorld. The kids have been asking us lately about going to see Mickey. We have a trip in the works but not for a couple of years. But if I could I would travel there right now to take them.

Nov 13, 2018

NaNoWriMo 2018: Week 2

Here's a recap of the second week of NaNoWriMo. It was honestly a tough week but I got through it and kept writing. If you want to read up on week 1, check it out here.

Day 5

I had some usual writing today because I actually did some writing on my iPad while waiting for lab tests today. Let me just say that typing on an iPad is less than ideal but I got about two words written while I was there so that was better than nothing. It was a start to my writing day. I did some more writing a little later that afternoon which is what actually got me to my word goal which keeps me two days ahead. So I was pretty pleased about that especially since I wasn't sure I would be able to much writing at all today.

Word Count: 12,298 (1,968 for the day)

Day 6

Today was the least amount I have written so far this month. I just wasn't feeling it. My goal was merely just to stay two days ahead for when I have days way worse than today.

Word Count: 13,564 (1,356 for the day)

Day 7

I wrote today in order to forget about the day. I just needed to ignore everything from today so I wrote to escape today. I was definitely doubting that today was going to go well but I feel like it went pretty well overall. I can't complain about it even if my brain feel frayed.

Word Count: 15,384 (1,820 for the day)

Day 8

Truthfully I didn't care to do too much writing today but once I finally sat down, the words flowed pretty quickly. I was able to write much more than I thought I would be able to today. I'm glad I did spend the time to write. I needed a creative outlet.

Word Count: 17,261 (1,877 for the day)

Day 9

I didn't start writing until much later today. I just wasn't feeling it but I wanted to at least do a little bit of writing today but my heart didn't completely seem into it today. This is just not my week - but I'm trying to keep at it!

Word Count: 18.411 (1,150 for the day)

Day 10

I really didn't want to write today. But I did but I definitely struggled. I got some words but I'm just shy of my two day lead. At least I got a little bit done today which is better than nothing.

Word Count: 19,819 (1,408 for the day)

Day 11

This just hasn't quite been my week of writing. It's definitely been a struggle this week. It was tough again to sit down and write and I didn't do it until later this afternoon, but I did do it. My goal was to make sure I was keeping my two day lead, so I'm pretty pleased with how this week went overall even if it was a bit of a struggle. But I got my words written today. I just have to turn my brain off and stop overthinking.

Word Count: 21,723 (1,904 for the day)

Nov 12, 2018

Bump to Baby: 33 Weeks

You are somewhere between 16 to 17 inches. Although you could definitely be longer than that. You are at least 4-and-a-quarter pounds in weight and still gaining weight like crazy. You are gaining at about a half pound a week now and also adding inches with each week. The amniotic fluid has now maxed out which means there is more baby than fluid now, which is why every move is sharper and a bit more painful. You are acting a lot like a baby, closing and opening your eyes when sleeping and awake. And you can also see a bit more light through the womb which means you can tell the difference between night and day, although we both know you will have all kinds of confusion after you are actually born. This is a huge week though because you now have your own immune system. I'm passing any antibodies on to you and you are using them to build up your immune system. Otherwise you are mostly just working on those lungs and getting those developed before you are born.

It's not surprise that I'm saying once again this has been a tough week. Basically they all feel tough right now. I'm at the point where my body just hurts from regular pregnancy third trimester stuff and also from things that I deal with throughout my pregnancies like my skeletal issue which come to find out might actually be a dislocated rib. No wonder I hurt so much. But anyway, the bathroom breaks are often so I don't often get to sleep through the night. It's hard to get comfortable during the day often when I do I have to get up and just go to the bathroom again, which sometimes literally makes me want to cry. The hormones are serious and wearing on me. The food struggle continues. But you are healthy and bouncing around in there. You get the hiccups a lot which I often feel low, so I think you have positioned yourself with your head down. You are very much on my right side which I know the varicose veins but also because I can feel you pushing on that side a lot. You are definitely my most active when you are awake, however that does mean it's a little painful for me since you are running out of room and your jabs can be pretty sharp. But I would rather feel your jabs than not at this point so just keep on doing what you're doing.

This pregnancy is definitely flying by. It's hard to believe that we are already at the tail end of this. But at the same time I do feel like I have been pregnant forever now. It's a weird mix. But I'm getting more excited and nervous about the actual birth and delivery. But also so ready. It's a weird mix of feelings. When I was pregnant with my first it was all nerves because I had no idea what was going to happen and then what do I do with a baby after. With the second I was just ready and even more ready to go home from the hospital as soon as they would let me. And now I'm a mix of the two. I wonder how life will be with three kids - kindergartner, toddler, and now newborn. But also just ready to get that part of our lives started. We definitely feel ready for her but we are also nervous about her arrival.

(Sunday, November 4 - Saturday, November 10)

Nov 9, 2018

Beautiful Mess Plans Co First Birthday // Happy Friday

November is a big month for me. It's the 8th month of my pregnancy which means the final month before I hit full term which for me means that Emma could come at any point (Addie came at 37 weeks and Connor at 39 weeks). It's NanoWriMo, which means I'm writing another 50,000 word novel. And it also means that my sticker shop is officially celebrating 1 year.

It seems like a lifetime ago that I decided I wanted to open a second shop and in some ways it was. The long and short of the story is that while I was laid up with knee surgery almost two years ago now, I watched a lot of YouTube videos. I ended up down a rabbit hole of Plan With Me videos and discovered this whole world of planning. It was definitely interested in it. I started with bullet journal videos which is what I ultimately settled on when it came to my own planning but I enjoyed watching other planning videos which usually included lots of stickers. 

Knowing I had a Silhouette that was just collecting dust, I thought that maybe this was something I could do. I ended up thinking about it for a long time before I even approaching Rob about the possibility of opening a second shop (I still had my jewelry shop at this point). He loved the idea and I started to set things in motion to do just that. It wasn't until last November 1 that I actually opened the shop and started down the road I am currently on.

In the last year I have learned a lot. I have closed my first shop after figuring out that I just didn't love it like I used to. I have enjoyed what I do with this sticker shop and of course made a little money along the way. It's been a fun experience and I look forward to another year.

During my first year of doing this I have had to learn how to do design work. And I have learned about what kind of shop I want to have. I started out with just clipart kits but now have expanded into photo kits which are my personal favorite.

One of the first kits I designed when I opened my shop.

That same kit redesign and about to be released again next week. Like I said I have learned a lot.
I'm sure I could say so much about my first year of Beautiful Mess Plans Co. I have kept that Etsy world separate from this blog world which I have had much longer on purpose but I wanted to share a little about my first year. It has been fun and awesome and I can't wait to see where my next year takes me.

Have a great weekend!
Happy Friday!

Nov 8, 2018

Bump to Baby: Dream Big

I was pretty excited when it came to decorating Emma's room. Before we knew if we were having a boy or a girl, I started putting a lot of thought into it. I had a pretty picture in my head of what I wanted if we were having a boy. I was thinking airplanes but I wasn't sure what I wanted if we were having a girl. I didn't want it to be like Addison's which is shades of pinks and grays. I wanted something original.

Then we found out we were having a girl I started looking. I started with a blanket which is one of the only things I have bought for each kid and I felt was important that it came from me. But I struggled to find one. Finally I stumbled across one and loved it. But it only came as a set and I definitely didn't want all the other stuff nor did I want to pay so much. So I continued to search but I just couldn't find anything. I kept going back to the one I found and loved. Eventually I decided to go another route and ended up finding the fabric because I happened to know someone who could easily and quickly put a blanket together.

And as soon as Mom agreed to put together a blanket for me, her room came together quickly. I decided I wanted something along the dream catcher lines without being too heavy in bohemian. I had the colors (the room was already gray and I wasn't going to paint) and it was pretty simple. I actually love it. I feel like it's a great room for a baby but also one that she will be able to grow up with. It's simple and the colors are beautiful.


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